Mantra

Awesome as she, in all her glory.
I was that girl, and he took it from me.
She pummelled it out, gave me a fresh look.
I wasn’t theirs to have, but it was me they forsook. 

I will be that girl, the ray of light.
Even with only myself, late at night.
I can fight this suffocation, I truly will.
I see what I was, what I became, but I’m me still.

Sick of the future, yet afraid to push the past away.
Clinging tightly to the pain, but I will break free today.
Plans were made, dreams wrung out.
Never had I felt such loss and doubt.

Yet now, I have the chance, to leave behind
Those things, those hurts that had left me so blind.
I have the fire, determination and rage
To take back that girl, yet war need not be waged.

This personal escape, this chance to seize.
I’ll be the girl he fell for, but one he can't squeeze.
I’ll take it all on, and I will win.
This vile competition, riddled with sin.

To rise above it all, to take it in my stride.
It was me they broke, but I’ll retain my pride.
The future is bright, orange they say,
Mine will be tainted but I’ll chase it away.

New people, a new way to smile, 
To see clearly, it may take a while.
Yet I know that these scars can fade,
And new light, new love will be made.